A salt river of tears fall from these and and my heart breaks in two over you . pink was my cheeks when you made me laugh, dry were my eyes when I knew you were mine, soft were my lips everytime they touched yours, warm was my body so close to yours, safe in your arms and out of harm, now pale is my cheeks, my eyes are wet, dry are my lips, and I'm cold and alone ever since you broke me.


nice ryte? was surfing the net and came across this. heehx!


The kayaking mini expedition was funn tho its kinda boring. we manage to survive kayaking from sembawang sea centre to causeway(johore) then back to SSC again. i pick the wrong partner to kayak with. he sux. he's stupid. he's short. he's fron PHS. he's weak. he only know how to do the stern rudder. and i was the one who is paddling all along. WTF?!


I wanna kill shazni. he emmbarassed me infront of evryone. i will kill him one day. LOL. anyway, thanks fer dha present yea?. haaaha! shazni is SHORT. LOL! he's height was only 15+. im 16+. i win him. hahs! so whad??


my body is all aching. SHI.T. ):

im slipping by the edge
im hanging by a thread
i got no where to run
im dying
im depressed
im diminished in the mirror
im fading away
im falling
im crying
im drowning
im crying
in a pool of blood
in a pool of tears

ure searching for me
but i need to avoid from u
to save myself from trapping inside again
stop crying
im always here for u
but we cant be together like before

i admit i was wrong
i understand why ure doing this to me
im all done
i admit im lost without u
i need you by my side
but time didn't allow us to be together
im SORRY
Leave me
thats the only way WE can resolve US


i need someone to love me
but i know it cant be u again
HELP!
ANYONE?!

If you loved me, you'd be there for me. To help me do the things I want to do.My whole life wouldn't be only for you,Nor would my love determine who you'd be.

I want you to respect what I do well,To share the joy I feel when I succeed,To give me the encouragement I need,To be my wings, not my protective shell.

I love you, and I want you to be mine,but time didn't allowed us to be together. It's a joy for you. but not for me.

sweet right the poem. (( :



guess whad?
UNITY SEC SUX!

They go and bring us to Labrador Park just to study about some STUPID SHITS over there. WTF??! LOL. and yesterday, they go and bring us to Sungei Buloh and aeroponics parh or whadeva shit. MREPEK SIAKK!!!

anyway, im in LOVE with this person. LOL. SYIQA. dhads her. haaha. i simple LOVE her siakk. (i noe u love me too ryte darlinnggg!!) haha. OMFG! IM TURNING TO BECUM A LESB! SHI.T!!


haahahahahahah!!!
bye. wanna munch sum food now.

i was wet wen i go home cause im full of of water, flour, egg and a few punch from the guys. DOINKS! ok. today is my birthday. haha. receive sum presents. thx jia hui for the present. its nyce! ((= for the ncc ghurls, thx fer dhad esprit tee yea. i love it loaads! -teehee!

went to sungei buloh just now for the Learning Journey. DAMN it sux alot! haaha. boring siakkk! tomorrow going to Labrador Park dunoe for whad. i rather stay in class n study. stupid larh mr. nathan! dhad freakin arse!

ok. im going out now. haaha. so lonngg!! ((:

really have no mood to post anything. DEEP sigh.



I don't know why
I like u so much
I gave all of my trust to u
My mind, my body, my soul to u
You talk dhad u love me.

I was then fall into ur sweet fuckin lies
I was addicted to it then
U put me thru pain afta i get to know dha story.

I dont want u back

U called me a bitch
And now i was ditch
U're askin me back
No no no
It's not worth a penny
Let ur dreams to have me by ur side fall into ur own illusion
Cos i ain't gonna accept dha NEW u.

Fuck whad i did was ur fault somehow
Fuck whad u said to me before
Fuck all those kisses u gave me before
Fuck u for all those touch

I don't want u back

There's always two sides of a story

It all ended here
Just forget bout me and carry on with ur NEW life
i'm gonna be fine on my own tho i know i cant w/o u by my side
SHI.T! DAM.N YOU!
FUC.K YOU! HATE YOU!
MISS YOU!

Im sorry
Stop bothering me
Just leave me.

yeayy!! all test are finally over! `weehee!! been really busy with skewl works and test all this while. that's why i never update fer the last few days. (= tomorrow gonna get back my biology test paper. friday gonna get back physics paper. hope i pass yea? *pray hard* guess what?? i got 35/50 for my C&C test. yes! haha.

psstt! im now a certified one star kayaker! LOLX. haha. had really great time during the kayaking course last saturday and sunday. really had a joyful time. and i mean real FUNN!! doing all the capsize drills, playing kayak games like balancing on the bottom deck of the kayak and stuffs. really had funn. miss the funn we, meng koon, jie xi, chuan seng, joey, me and the guangyong students had. heehx!

ok. i'll update tomorrow about my biology test results yea?
tata! (( :

just got back from the 1 star kayaking crs. haha! it was a blasT! DAM.N funnnn! HELL YEA! we learn lotsa strokes and stuff about the kayak today. haha. meng koon and me keep doing the capsize drills. LOLX. we simple LOVE it ryte ghurl?? heehx!

DAM.N there's lotsa lotsa and i mean LOTSA seaweed or wadever slimy-slimy sruff there in the reservoir. we name that thingy "samara hair". hahaha. LAME. LMFAO! tomorrow still have to go to Lower Seletar reservoir for the kayaking crs again. looks like imma having sunburn after dhda. LOLX. SHI.T

im hungry larhx!
my momma didn't cook.
`waaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!

im back from NCC training. it was fun arh coz i be the part b ic. haha! was so so so nevous in the first place. but after meng koon gimme courage and stuff, im ready. LOLX. it was kinda funn uhh. i was the PTI too. heehx! 3 weeks staright i be the PTI. DAM.M! BORINGG.

wadever. anyway, tomorrow gonna go for the one star kayaking course at seletar wadever.SHI.T! on sunday i got madrasah exam den got kayaking. HOW??

met him just now in the afternoon for awhile. haha.

ok. byee. wanna find sumthing to much. tata!



*jie xi, shahida, meng koon, chuan seng, radziah, marleen, nurul.. i LOVE you all LOTSA!!!!*
SHI.T! doesn't matter right if imma lesb? LMFAO! X)

guess whad? i cant do my sosial studies test just now. SHI.T! i forget all whad ive studies a few mins before the test! so prepare to fail zalique. :( ms kom told us she gonna give back our math test papers tomorrow. i hope i pass. but i know i fail. DUH!

biology test is on fri and i only started studying chptr 2. WTF??! physics test is on next tuesday and i haven even started studying that chptr! OMFG!! whad hapen to me?

HHEEEELLLPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



"you gave me a perfume yesterday cause of my upcoming birthday. you told me to come back to you. but do you meant all your words? i miss you so. but everything seems not right. i know i cant belong to you anymore. so please. stop bothering me."

Math test was a blast! it was kinda hard. SHI.T! ms kom only gave us 30 mins. can imagine how short the duration is?! urghh!

there's lotsa lotsa test coming up. and i mean LOTS of them. its difficult w/o mid year exams. i cant know whads my weaknesses and stuff. STUPI.D nathan. FUC.K!social studies retest tomorrow on chatr 3. hate chtr 3. about Sri Lanka and Northern Ireland. DAM.N! english test this coming thursday, argumentative essay. SHI.T! hate that!

biology test is coming up this friday. 5 chtprs. ALOT right!! i cant imagine how my end of yr exam gona be like. can i cope with all this stuff? SHI.T! physics test this coming tuesday. mdm Li haven even started teaching chtr 11, but she gona include this chptr inside the test. OMFG!!

im so so so stressed. HELP PLEASE??!

had oral examination for religious class just now. its so so easy larh. only a few pages. i don't give a dam. wadeva! (:

went to meet my parents and my grandmotha at jurong point afta dhat to celebrate mother's day. haahs! headed to Swensens. saw this CUTE guy, working at the restaurant. mann! he's so so so CUTE! heehx! if he could be mine.. -dreaming. nahhh. cannot be. ok. went to popular and saw some sec 5 unity students. bla bla bla. they sux! -yupz.

headed home at ard 7+ cox there's lotsa subject to study. but now, here i am, updating. i just can't live w/o computer. so what to do. haaha!

ok. im outta here. gotta do some revision on my math and biology.
Dam i hate biology!! urgh!

ok. was force to update by dhad mangkok nadzirah. nvrmind. but i still lurve you babyy. mwahaha! so here i am, updating.

goshh!! im so so so in LOVE this few days. heehx! had ncc training just now. anyway, sir KHAIRUL, or whadeva or name is, how u know i got this freaking blog?? if ure reading this, tell me on the next ncc training kiex? (haha. im fcuking curiuos about this. dam! i dunoe how to spell curious!)

ok. let me start whad i really wanna post. first, i LOVE my 'DSs'. they are my evrything mann. really LOVE them loads. next, shahida. damn!! i really, really, really LOVE her. AND I MEAN IT! she's my one and only darling. anyone who dares to take her away from me, i'll go and smack ur sexy pantat! -giggle. Jie xi. she's my lesbo partner. haha. meng koon. reallly LOVE her. she's like my mother in ncc and whadsoeva. thank you darling!

Marleen. tho i've just know her this year, cox she's from indonesia, i LOVE her lotsa lotsa! we gonna get married on saturday, at Mandarin hotel, ballroom no. 1. be sure to come yea? (babyy..don't forget ok wear the white gown 1st!) hahahaha! Radziah. tho she's my senior, and i've just know her this yr too, i LOVE her lotss. she's the only friend thAt i can trust.

Chuan Seng. my ncc mate since sec 1. really LOVE him cox he's my MAJOR pervetic partner! LMAO!! ((: you rockz darliinngg!! haha! i, too LOVE my nuts` partner, NURUL. (sweetiee, when wanna have a DATE, only the TWO of us, together? really miss you lotsa lotsa ghurl! holla me kiex a.s.a.p)

to those of my darliiinnng and babbyy that are not mention here, i still LOVE you people!

GOSHH!!! i really, really in DEEEPP LOVE this few days. hhahaha!! anyone wanna be my LOVER next?? hahah. stop it zalique!

ok. end here. its a looonngg post tho. plus its so so so so so LAME. yea. LMAO! <3!
(:

so loonngg people. my darLinnng.
take care!! (((:

damn! my post is like im gona die.
DO I LOOK LIKE DYING???????? (: