No doubt that high school days were the joyous time in my life. Boys, fights, play, quarrels, shouting, crying, breaking down, crush, love, friendship. Once we find love, we'll be blinded by it. But when we find friendship, those happy times will be kept in our memories wherever we go. Even though we've found new friends along the way, the people that stays with you throughout will be the ones you found during high school days. The will always be there when you need a shoulder to lean on, ears to let out your feelings to, hands when you needed help and love, when you are lonely at times. When one quarrel with the other person, there will always be another girl who will make it all right again between us.

After all those unexpected events that happened, I've now realised that they are the ones who will be there. Even though i have found new ones, no one can ever compare with the ones i found during those days. Whenever you need someone to confide in, you'll feel more comfortable to let out everything to the ones who has been with you for a long time.

The laughter that the new ones gave you just cannot beat with the old ones. Whenever i think of it, i just want them to be near me. Just like during high school days, you get to see them every second in class. We eat, play, laugh, cry, fight, bitch and do everything together. And we even got a crush on the same person!

So whatever happened between any of us and our new friends, we still have us. Well that's how i will always remember in my heart. And now, i am missing them. I am so sweet i know. Right girls? *Grins.*

For a second, i know that some things don't happen for a reason. That's life. I just can't give you the reason why. The feelings that i had for you all these while are all gone. Sometimes, i just feel like giving up. Giving up on you. There are times when i can't get you outta my head. There are also times i wished that i don't have to know you at all. You are not the only one being confused here cause you're just making things complicated for me.

I just can't hold it any longer. I am on the verge of breaking down like whenever. I've tried everything, everything that you can think of. Just because i am hurt doesn't mean i shouldn't bleed. There's the first to everything and i know you know it too. I am not invisible after all. Maybe i think too much. I 've set too high hopes on you. It's hard just to get over. All i am hoping now is to get everything back to the correct path.

Blasting some loud music on my earphone and scream my lungs out is the thing that i feel like doing now. Tear everyone apart. Jumps off from a cliff and into an ocean where there are no problems. Nothing. I am sick of everything. I am tired of waiting. This phrase is true somehow. Some things are better to be left unsaid, and better to be felt instead - Atikah.

Sometimes, it's better to just let it go rather than to wait. I am tired of waiting. I am sick of those actions. Just like Sean said, humans are all evil creatures. They lie to live because without lying, some just can't survive in this small world. I can't deny that i don't lie either.



Them. No words can ever describe how happy i am whenever they're around. Cause world seems to go round and round and round while we are having fun. Friends gives you the strength, hope and faith. They literally stand by you and be there. Friendship. Well apart from that, i miss Stanely so much. So much till i wanna fly to UK this instant and look for him.

Anyway, i've got and interview with Ben & Jerry and i am still having second thoughts of whether to work there or just pass it. Work work work, i need money. There are so many things to do with so little money.

I watched Wall-E and it is the best movie ever. Upon 10, i'm gonna rate it 1068983526! I am of course gonna watch it again. ANYONEEEEEEE??!!!

Screwed. Totally screwed up CKT's paper. I think i will end up taking the supp paper. Oh my god no, no supp paper please. Now what's left is ESFAC paper. Tomorrow's the last. And i can enjoy holidays to the bits.

There are so many things that i have already planned to do during the holidays. I will be meeting up with my girls on Friday to baybeats, celebrate lantern festival with Jacq and Grace, break fast with Sue and Aisyah, dinner at carousel with Sam and friends!, shopping with Atikah, shopping again with Marie and Xiang Li, watch Wall-E and eat at Sakae Sushi with classmates, girls night out with Marie again,. And all these need money, and i want a job!

And this is so embarrassing. It was actually a dare from Stane before he flew of to UK. I wonder how he is doing. And if you happen to read this, i miss you like crazy! Tell me everything and come online!

Very very embarrassing oh my gooooooooood.

And girl, stop copying whatever i typed in my blog. Even if it just a sentence.

4 days more and exams will begin. There are still lots more to study. I hate memorising, though i used to love history and social studies during the O level period. But IWD is killing me. Nevertheless, went airport to study with some of my classmates, Mahathir was there to, hahaha. Managed to study math and CKT for the whole entire day and WQ really pissed me off at night when Mark pretended that he gave me gummies through msn? Lol.

Well anyway, i am suppose to study right now, but instead here i am . I can't wait for exams to be over and holidays to come. And i hope they will hire me. I need money kay.

Haha this is the best part.

And i defnitely miss my girls too. Stanely's leaving on Sunday and that is like in three more days. How saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad! :'(

Exams are coming in a weeks time. People are busy studying, procastinating at the very last minute. And so do i. Started studying only last wee, and realised that i have not enough time left to cover all the chapters for each module. Being a very kind ESSFAC teacher, he gvae us more than enough tips for exams. Questions that are gonna be tested for the paper. IWD has always been so fucked up. CKT's kind of okay for me and maaaaaaaath! :( Fret not, people around mehave always been good to me, well except for some.

Days of 1st semester flies very fast. And now, exams are coming. Decided to pass the Vietnam trip and work throughout the entire 7 weeks of holidays i have so that i can ear extra cash, to shop! Went to that particular outlet and the people there are friendly. And i wish that Van can ask for a transfer so that he can work together with me at the same outlet, which i know it is likely to happen haha.

Presentation for WRTORAL is over, and i am so glad that i manage to get higher marks than them. 18/20, best kan. WRTORAL was the best out of every subjects that i took this sem. Well maybe because of all the one minute presentation and the 5 min presentation i had, which i find it kind of fun.

Met up with Grace And Jacq to study in school yesterday. Jacq bought play doh and i was influenced by that play doh so i am going to get them for myself to play sooon, haha. Despite being tired, went out with Stanely and some others to basically rot and talk like how we used to do as Stanely's leaving! :( Fret not, Sam will still be here and i love both of them.












Well anyway, these are some pictures taken after presentation and in the library, lol. School has always been very lively.

Now, i am missing alot of people. Stanely, Sam, Van, Grace, Jacq, Nurul, Jie Xi, WQ (haha) and whoever.

Oh yes! Me tup with Aisyah and Sue for dinner the other day and had lots of fun. Cause whenever we're together, we will probably laugh throughout the whole day! And Aisyah, all the best with your boyfriend! I'll update you guys bout the big hair-ed guy that i told both of you the other day, ha meet up soon girls.

And girl stop acting like as though your vocabulary is good.

Happy birthday Jie Xi.

There are lots of things that had happen and that's gonna happen.

Sam is back, and i miss him as if he's been away for centuries. Met up with Stanely three days ago and he actually bitched about a girl in his class, teling me how bimbotic she is. From the way she talk, flirt, walk, everything! WQ called me the other night and he said that he loves me for the very first time! I was shocked and touched, very very touched haha. I am sure he really took lots of guts to eventually let out those words. On top of that, met up with tipah and pe'ah last weekend just to catch up among ourselves. Saw someone while i was on the way to school on tuesday. I was overjoyed of course because he actually waved at me and i only managed to smile back.

School has been kind of stressful. There are quite a number of assisgnments to do especially Wrtoral, of which there will be a presentation this coming tuesday and i can't really wait for it actually. Cause presentation will really build up your self confidence that we will be needing it sooner or later. Besides, i'll be wearing a formal attire just for it. Excited, haha. Exams are coming like in three weeks time. It is not even a month. Well sometimes, i don't think poly is a place to play after all. Apart from skipping lectures of course. But it's nice to go to school everyday cause you can actually dress up and see how others look. HAHAHA. AND STANELY DEFINITELY GONNA AGREE WITH ME. xD

CKT is fucking me vertically. And i don't even know what position is that though. Those capacitors, voltage divider rule, thevenin's theorem and bla bla. Hate hate hate it. ESFAC is still okay, cept that it is the 'tedious' kind of module. IWD is crap, and engine mathematics is far from additional mathematics. Well only 50 percent of it are partially add math chapters, so i should not use thae term far after all.

26 July 2008, Jie Xi turned 18. Like finally. Called her in the afternoon just to wish her that. And also maybe because i miss talking to her, HAHA. I knew you six years ago when we were still a nerd in NCC. We've been through ups and downs throughout the four years in that stupid sucked up cca. Well maybe because of the fucking CLTs and i don't think i should mention the names here. We have fought, we have quarrelled, we have been tired, we have ditched our fucking USM (OMG I AM ACTUALLY BITCHING), we have cried, we have laughed and we have been through all these years. Whenever i reminisce those days, there are sad and happy memories spent with you. And i never regret knowing you. So, happy belated birthday again. Best of luck for your A levels this year and secure yourself in a university. Also, all the best with your relationship with russell. We should meet up soon okay.

And this picture was actually taken three years back in Pulau Ubin when we went cycling there, hahaha. She's pretty now. o_O

Changed tongue stud and it cost me 16 bucks. I am freaking broke this month and i don't know why. I want money money money. Still deciding whether i should go to Vietnam for the VTCDS or whether i should work during my 7 weeks of holiday. I want money!

I am always missing youuuuu. ;D

Lab test was alright just now. Managed to do about 90% of it. And the 10% goes to a question worth 4 marks, asking us to draw our own diagram bout some resistor thing, so that the total resistance must equals to 970 ohms. I did not do it, well not because i was lazy but it was kind of hard for me to figure it out. This is one of the reason why i hate Circuit Analysis module the most.

About the wrtoral assignment, did it with Marie on tuesday evening, after class. When we reached the bus stop, we missed our bus. And so, we waited when out of a sudden, Marie's like "hey." I really thought that she's gonna approach her friend or what but instead she went to hail for a cab. I was like "omggggggggg." Rushed to starbucks Tampines, and this funny guy gave me a grande frap unstead of the tall one, which i've asked for. -_- End at about 8pm and walk around since she wants to look for some high heels and also was waiting for this noob friend of mine to accompany me home but being the iufdshukey one, he slept all the way and text me at about 9 plus, and text me, saying that it's already late for him to head home with me well since he need to reach camp at 1130. Was pissed, very pissed, very very pissed. Ah anyway, supposed to hand it up by today at 5pm. And being the forgetful one, i did not bring one of the chapters that need to be submitted. Was so fucking pissed and i wish i have a driving license so instead of taking the public transport which will take about 1hour an a half, i can go back home to take the stuff for within 30 mins by car. Only if i have a driving license. o_O

Initially, i planned to go to this extra math lecture in school at 2pm. But Marie told me that she wants to search for high heels in town. I was definitely tempted to hear it lah cause it's been like some time since i went there, hahaha. There is a straight bus from school bus stop to town, so we took that. After looking around for some high heels, went to this tatoo and piercing shop to check out the price and the needle for piercing a tongue. Freaked out cause the needle is like so freaking long and kind of thick. Didn't do it thought. Ate subway after Marie sister arrived. Walked to heeren and went to other a tatoo and piercing shop there to check out bout tongue piercing again. Annnnnnnnnnnnnnd,


got my tongue pierce lah! Hahaha. Seriously, i was so freaking scared in the first place. Walked around to look for bikinis and such, and i took like 20 minutes to decide. Oh well. It's kind of difficult to talk properly now since the tongue's swelling a lil bit and it's uncoordinated. So yeah. Definitely cannot eat properly for now and i think i'm gonna starve for like what, 4 to 5 days? But i'm loving my tongue stud. xD



And this is what we did!